Growing up, I was always the "pretty" girl. I won my first pageant at the tender age of six, and by the time I was 16, I had won Miss Ireland and was competing for Miss Universe. But behind the glamorous facade, I was struggling with a deep secret: I had anorexia.
I had always been a perfectionist, and when I started modeling, I became obsessed with my appearance. I thought that if I could just be thin enough, I would finally be happy. I started restricting my food intake and exercising excessively.
As my weight dropped, I became weaker and more withdrawn. I lost my period, my hair started falling out, and my skin was always dry and flaky. But I refused to admit that I had a problem. I thought that if I could just get through one more day, one more week, one more month, I would finally reach my goal weight.
But it never happened. I was trapped in a vicious cycle of self-loathing and despair. I was so ashamed of my illness that I kept it a secret from everyone, even my family and friends.
It wasn't until I collapsed at a photoshoot that I finally realized how sick I was. I was rushed to the hospital and diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. I was given medication and therapy, and I slowly started to recover.
It was a long and difficult road, but I eventually got my life back. I'm now a healthy, happy, and successful woman. I'm also a proud advocate for eating disorder awareness. I want to help others who are struggling with this disease to know that they are not alone and that recovery is possible.
I know that eating disorders are often seen as a vanity issue, but they are anything but. They are serious mental illnesses that can have devastating consequences. If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, please seek help. There is hope.
Here are some tips for talking to someone about an eating disorder:
If you are struggling with an eating disorder, please know that you are not alone. There is help available. Please reach out to a trusted friend, family member, or therapist. Recovery is possible.