Self-Reflection

It is painful indeed to admit that your life is empty. It is even more painful to know that you have got to this empty place because of the choices you have made knowingly and unknowingly in your life.

My current reality is not a picture I had imagined or hoped for. But it is my reality.

The human condition means we make mistakes. And I have made some mistakes that have cost me dearly...

I get up every morning with effort to face a day of professional work that no longer fulfills me because the hole created on a personal level is so great that it consumes me. There are no friends. There is no conversations. There is no companionship. There is no interest. There is nothing of any purpose. There is no emotional support whatsoever. Just solitude so empty it is crippling.

I am alone and imprisoned in loneliness. And when the work is gone, the hole will swallow me.

I reflect today with intent to do what only I can do - change my life.

So I let go of the negative energy, I let go of all the fears, I let go of that which has emptied and imprisoned me.

It is time to find peace and open to the wonder of small joys that God has provided in my life.

I thank the Lord for my precious mother and for my daughter. I thank the Lord for their unconditional love.

And I thank the Lord for helping me to see myself...